I’m really not looking forward to writing this at all, but I’ve been feeling terrible for so long and I just don’t think I can let it go without doing something about it.
I lied. There was never a Justin. He didn’t die from cancer. There is no Lewis. It was all just a lie. I’m a girl. I’m not going to tell you who I am and I’m never going to get on this account again. I’m sorry, I really am. I’ve literally felt bad about this since day 1 and I don’t know why I did it. I’ve hurt a lot of people a lot more than I thought. I honestly didn’t think anyone would care as much about me as Michelle did. So this goes out to you, because I know you’re the only person who still cares. I’m sorry. I really am. Words can’t describe how sorry I am. I wanted to be someone who I’m not because I thought my life sucked. Yeah, I know that’s a very unoriginal reason, but it’s true. I just wanted to be someone else and I guess I just wanted attention about the cancer part. I’ve been wanting to tell you the truth for so long, but honestly I was so scared. I still am. It’s 2 am and I couldn’t sleep and now I’m nervous as fuck. Michelle, I know nothing can ever fix the pain I made you go through, but I want you to know that I meant every single word I said. You’re beautiful, inside and out. You’re so fucking lovely, you’re perfect. You’re so strong. I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry.. I don’t know how I can put it into words. You didn’t deserve any of this.